Whom I Love The Most: I am going to be completely honest. When I began watching Star Wars I was maybe four years old. I watched the original cuts of the old trilogy from a very young age and was very invested in everything about them. When the prequels began showing in theaters I was amazed. I couldn’t tell how shitty the plot was or how heavy the dialogue was, I was just a kid watching action happen and falling in love with characters. Needless to say, I have always resonated with Ewan McGregor’s portrayal of Obi Wan Kenobi. That character development is the entire reason I will ever watch The Prequels now, those three movies showcase a huge development of one of the greatest legends and characters of the Star Wars Universe. I loved his wisdom and his “think first, act second” attitude. It has been very much a central theme in my own life and not exactly the BEST way to live, but one that provides plenty of meditation and thought. I can meditate, I know how to think (and do plenty of it) so that was always something I loved. If I were to gain force powers, there would be no doubt maybe I would learn how to channel them and finally quiet my high-strung anxiety and learn to turn them into reasonable thought.
Anger: I can’t stand being angry. It takes a lot of absolute bullshit being stacked on bullshit to throw me into an actual tantrum. Sure I get frustrated with small shit, but who doesn’t? Every Jedi would find themselves irritated if their coworker was being a shit head, right? At the end of the day I rarely find myself in a mood where I want to scream as loud as possible at everything. Very rarely do I let my anger fuel me into a drunken rage where I break things and fight people. I have never been in a physical fight I instigated, instead once I was jumped in the sixth grade bathrooms because of gang reasons. What did I do? Well I went to sixth period history class like a champ and wore it off. I was not the best person to play sports because I never got into a furious rage where I would feel an adrenaline rush. Instead my adrenaline rushes come from creativity, which I don’t think the Sith really rely on.
Pain: When Kylo Ren starts punching his wounded side in the newest Star Wars movie, it really showcases how the Sith rely on their pain to fuel their force powers. I suffer from chronic pain in both my knees and my feet and let me tell you, it fucking wears me out. Not once do I go, “yea my knee pain is excruciating today, let me just go use it to tear some people down.” Never. I have chondromalacia patella (decaying of the cartilage behind the kneecap) and plantar fasciitis (terrible terrible pain in the feet) and it’s so chronic I try to relieve it if anything. But I can’t the life of a Jedi is sworn to help people and I am in the service industry so I never let my pain fuel me into a bad mood (at least anymore).
Color of Lightsaber: Alright, so the powdery blue of Obi Wan’s lightsaber has always had that classic Jedi feel. If I was to build my lightsaber right now it would be fucking blue. Not only does it represent a more physical aspect of the force (Idk, to meditate and HEAL my body) but it looks beautiful.
Love: Well, as of right now I don’t plan on having anything to love so, um. Yea, life of the Jedi is no problem.
The Plan: If I could become a force sensitive person right now, I would devote my life to helping anyone I could. I hate when I am happy and everyone else is not. It makes me sick to know that someone I care about is not well. This might be too many emotions for a Jedi to possess, but helping others without having to fight is a moral they try so hard to abstain. I guess I am going all in. Thank you Ewan Mcgregor for making Obi Wan a memorable character for the rest of our lives.